While im waiting

Its been 2 months since we began waiting for a match.  The toughest part for me so far in this journey is The wait.  You would think I'd be used to waiting.   Afterall, its been 6 years since we started trying to have a family.  We've waited 6 LONG years.  Its no big deal to wait a little longer right?  Wrong.
I find peace while I wait by trusting in God and leaning on my family and friends.  They are all part of this master plan, and without them we wouldn't make it through.  God will provide us the gift of our child when He finds the right fit for us.  I trust in Him.  So when my days get tough,  which they often do, I pray.  God will guide me through and give me strength.  He's never let me down and He's not about to start now. I often sing in my head the song "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller.  It has given me strength through our infertility treatments and now I find strength while we wait with our adoption.  I will close with these words:
I'm waiting,
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful,
patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident.
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting

Bring on 2013!

As I reflect on what happened in 2012, it brings a smile to my face to think about where we were at emotionally a year ago and to see how far we've come.
A year ago we had just received the news that our first IVF was not successful and were trying to figure out why.  We were in the process of making some very serious decisions about our future family.  We decided to try one more time and transfer the remaining embryos we had frozen.  That occurred in late February.  We found out that wasn't successful at the beginning of March and decided that this was our sign from God that He was leading our hearts in the direction towards adoption. God had already started to lead us in that direction,  but it took a little bit for us to finally see the plan He had for us.   We began that journey in mid-April and its been a roller coaster ride ever since!   This ride included TONS of paperwork, counselling sessions with our amazing social worker, 9 references, personality tests, parenting tests, physicals, FBI background checks, family history, group work shops and so much more! Yes there were some tough times, but there were also some great times!  We've come a long way with our knowledge on adoption.  I always made a point to educate myself about infertility,  but I was clueless when we first started the adoption process.   I think its safe to say that I'm pretty educated on adoption now too and am looking forward to continuing to learn more.  Every day brings a new challenge and I'm sure it will be like that every day when we are parents too.
2013 will be an amazing year.  We know it will be the best year we've had during our 10 year marriage because it will be the year we earn the title of PARENTS.   The nursery is ready, the car seat is waiting,  and our arms are open for our child to arrive.   Goodbye 2012 and bring on 2013.  We are ready for the best year of our lives.