Tis the season

I was reading an article on the Resolve website about this time of year being the hardest for 7.3 million Americans who struggle with infertility. That's a jaw dropping statistic.  I'm one of those 7.3 million. To know that 7.3 million people in America struggle to conceive blows my mind.  And to know that so many people are embarrassed to talk about it makes me sad.  I refuse to be the person who is ashamed.  Yes im infertile. But infertility doesn't define me.  I believe it makes me stronger.  This year I'm making a promise to myself to not focus on what I don't have, but instead to focus on what I do have.  This year will be little different.  I'm actually not as depressed as I have been in previous years.   I think its because I know that this will be our last Christmas as a family of two.  I guess I'm hopeful it will be. 

Realistically we could wait a year for a match,  but I'm holding on to hope that we won't wait that long.  While we wait for God to find our child, I will celebrate the amazing blessings in my life.  I'm blessed with the most amazing man whom I've been lucky enough to have in my life for 17 years.  I pray God allows us to live at least another 50 together!  I'm blessed to have amazing parents and in-laws who would do anything for us.  I'm blessed to have 2 wonderful sisters, an amazing sister-in-law, and some pretty awesome brother-in-law's too!   Oh and let me not forget about our 5 nieces and 4 nephews whom I'm so proud to be auntie to!  God has blessed me beyond measure. We both have the BEST extended family in the whole world! Some wonderful friends. Some pretty darn good jobs with amazing bosses. I could go on and on but you get the point. :)

Tis the season for holiday shopping and picking out the perfect santa gifts to give your children. I always dream about what it will be like to play Santa.  I picture the looks of excitement in our children's eyes when they see the gifts wrapped under the tree for them.   But until that day arrives, I will continue to thank God for what I have.  The child who comes into our family will be lucky enough to share all these wonderful blessings with me.  I look forward to that day.