When we were going through our adoption journey with J, I found it so therapeutic to write about it. So now I am turning to writing again to help me get through the struggles along the way to having baby #2. Those who've never gone through infertility struggles and adoption wait, cannot fully grasp the difficulty of the long journey. Not only did we wait for almost 7 difficult years to have our first son, now we are going on 7 months of waiting just to get in with our agency again, with who knows how long of a wait to follow. I'm not looking for sympathy. I don't expect anyone to fully understand unless they've experienced it, but I would love some prayers. We received news last week that our agency will not be opening up the program that we used to adopt J because of low placement rates and have no plans to do so until some of the 30+ families receive placements. So now, we have the difficult decision of what to do. We need to decide first if we want to continue the road to have another baby. If so, we need to find a national agency and open it up to all 50 states. With that, comes a lot more added financial stress as well as travel expenses. Nothing about the journey has been easy, so I'm not sure why I expected this to be. The only thing I know for certain is this: God has it all figured out already. He is just patiently waiting for us to pick which path we want to walk down. I am casting my worries on to Him to figure out all the details. Sometimes I wonder how in the world we will make this work. I'm sure God just smiles and says to himself "just trust me." It's so difficult to do when you have the fear of the unknown. God I do trust you. I know that you will make this happen if it is meant to. So today I CAST THAT THING and I ask that you help ease my fear and worries.
"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you."
1 Peter 5:7
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