October 14, 2014
My sweet blue eyed boy,
I cannot believe that one year ago we sat in a courtroom and took an oath that legally made you our son in the eyes of the law. Today is one more day we will celebrate every year. You get three parties every year! Your birthday, placement day and finalization day are all days we'll celebrate every year. Some years maybe we'll have your favorite meal, or go to your favorite park or just sit down on the couch and watch Rio. (Right now that is your FAVORITE cartoon, so that is what we will do today!)
I remember sitting on that stand and my attorney was asking me questions. She asked if I would love you and care for you as if I'd given birth to you, untiI the day I die. I didn't hesitate for one millisecond to answer yes. I remember asking myself that very same question before we even began the adoption process and long before God brought you into this world. I cannot believe I even had to ask myself that question. In my defense, adoption was scary to me. I was very much uninformed, but thankfully that was quickly changed. I want you to know that not a moment goes by that I don't think to myself how precious of a gift you are to me and your daddy. We love you beyond words. There is absolutely no earthly treasure that is greater then the love you have brought us. Being a mommy is tough work, but it is the most rewarding and the greatest job on earth. I will absolutely, without question, love you and care for you until the day I no longer walk this earth. You are my sweet, very strong willed, happy, sometimes crabby, busy, curious, talkative and precious blue eyed 19 month old baby boy who loves trucks and trains and legos and books. Tons and tons of books! I thank God for you.
I will never forget the judge saying to me as I was getting off the stand,"I have one more question. Is he ALWAYS this smiley?" My reply was yes. Your smile will light up a room and don't even get me started on your belly laughs. You are a happy little boy and I am so overjoyed and blessed that you call me mama. I look forward to watching you grow. Although I'd prefer you slow down a little. You are getting too big too fast, but it is oh so fun! There will be a day that you won't want to snuggle and watch cartoons, so today I will enjoy it and celebrate YOU! I LOVE YOU!
